Went with mum for lunch jus now. Seldom got this chance n i really treasure every moment with her. By the time she's back form work, it will already been 11.30pm n i'll b busy with my own stuffs. I wonder how some ppl can communicate so well with their parents that its like chatting with their best friends. To me, i cant. Given that i love them most(esp mum), im not able to share anything very personal. I noe they wont understand, esp dad. n i can guess wat they will say if i talk to them abt certain issue. Yea, so even when sometimes i have the urge to tell them sth, this tot jus puts me off.

Mum asked me wat do i think abt my sis's bf. All i can say is he's decent enough but i really dunno wat's his true self. Do my sis even know his true self? i dunno. I never can discuss such issue with my family, maybe bro only. Then she started telling me that looks and qualification doesn't matter much actually. Most important is the respect n trust a husband should give for his wife. I agreed totally. I dun need a husband who is a scholar or watsoever. Its not is if i dun have the ability to support myself? All i need is a faithful, understanding and caring husband. He mus really really understand me cuz i get irritated easily if my closest ones dun understand me. cuz i expect them to do so. The fact that they can be my closest ones means that the understanding should come so naturally. But like i say, its only my own expectation. Maybe that's also y i tend to quarrel with him over v minor matters n at the end of it, he still cant understand the reason behind it. *faints* haha

Sometimes i feel that mum is such a strong character. Even though she din receieve much education, she's able to think like any degree holder. haha. She has her own fertile womenhood and not be under the control in the male-dominated world. If im put into her situation, im sure i wont be able to handle it. She able to fulfll her all roles no matter wat circumstances she's put into. There was once she told me she felt that she wasn't a good mother. cuz of her job, she's not able to spend time to take good care of us. My reply is i can always feel her presence, whether she's working or not. She always give me a call to ask how am i during her break time. Even before she leaves home to work, she'll call me to tell me wat she has cooked that day. N now im guilty of hanging up on her when im still in lesson and not bother to call her back later. I jus took her for granted. Sometimes, u can only feel more when u ask for the least of everything.

Enough of those self reflection. Human geo paper, not too bad. Im able to do all the question except for the last part which i cound't recal some of the points. Overall, its consider fine=) maths n lit P5 tml and i'll be free!!! haha. at least for this week can. But i got so much things on jus within the 3 days. Got to prioritise. No matter wat decision i make, i'l definitely pang seh one grp. Dun blame me k? i noe u guys wont=) haha

I Wish Upon a Star on Wednesday, March 21, 2007