Time check: 4.40AM


Im up.
At 4.30am.
No No
I dun have any paper today.
Just up.


I forced myself to wake up to remove my make up.
=.=
And im feeling very hungry now.
I fell asleep at 10.
By literally dropping my phone while chatting with friends on msn.
hahaha
My first reaction when i woke up was
"Shit! Din see what pam wrote!"
and almost went back to sleep again.
BUT NO!
Can't afford to have any more pimples.
I think im weird.
Yes weird.
Cos when i looked into the mirror just now
i kinda liked what i saw.
For a moment i found myself rather cute with those red dots.
The imperfect face.
It feels good to love yourself for who you are.
For your imperfections.
And it's time to love others for their imperfections too.
Wanted to go ntu to look for hubby.
But i knew I definitely would want a bed tonight.
Though i wasn't feeling really exhausted just yet.
And now i miss him.
Im grateful to have a good hubby.
For now at the very least.
Dropping by my house everyday during this tedious period
to buy me snacks
and to joke with me.
Even though he is more busy.
Only that im more stress.
And i definitely have the best parents on earth.
My mum brought me bird nest the moment im home.
She saw my cute pimples?
At least to me.
They're the best.
And im grateful to have wonderful friends.
To support and guide me through.
我们要懂得感恩。
Love is not to be measured by distance and time.
Love cannot be measured in the first place.
Mum told me of a singer who got into depression after her mum passed away.
Im afraid it will happen to me next time.
I love my parents ALOT.
But someone asks me why i want to live so far away from my parents.
Cos my love is not affected by distance?
And time.
Some people have inflexible mindset.
And this inflexibility is not determine by age.
Even my parents are more open than them.
My dad encourages me to stay at punggol.
He says the environment is better.
Sometimes i can't help thinking that Chinese are pretentious?
That some of them ill-treat their parents though they're staying with them.
So ironic.
And people gossip about children who choose not to live with their parents?
When they care more than those who are living under one roof with the parents.
It's not like they are migrating to another country and not seeing the parents for years.
So superficial.
And they continue to ask what about my children. who's gonna take care of them?
MY HUSBAND AND I???
DUH.
I know you want to make use of your parents to help look after your kids.
But im glad im not you.
zzzzz.....
I dun want yishun.
Unless there is really no other choice.
Why should i settle for something inferior when there are better choices?
I grow up independently.
If you know me,
you'll know that my parents hardly call and bother me.
Even Ping's parents call him more often than my parents do.
It's not that they dun care.
But they know I dun like it.
And they have learned to accept that im independent enough.
So what if they call and know where you are?
Are they able to appear suddenly to protect you when u're in trouble?
No right?
Yea I said this to my dad last time.
LOL
Parents call to feel relieve.
Ultimately it's for themselves isn't it?
A person's character is very much influenced by the family background and condition.
I saw how my dad broke down into tears when my grandma passed away.
That was the first time.
Perhaps some people choose not to live with parents
cos they do not want to be too close.
Too close for comfort
that no one will be able to bear the pain when the person leaves.
I didn't know im this tired.
But i know im strong.
And I thank God for looking after my body.
One last paper to go.
And goodbye to Yr3 Sem1!

I Wish Upon a Star on Friday, November 26, 2010